I hate doing group assignments because of all the dramas that come with it. Why can’t people just behave properly even just for the sake of the damn assignment. Learn how to communicate guys. There has been a serious communication breakdown in my group of friends because of a group assignment. It started off with a small misunderstanding that later explodes like World War 3. Why it happens? It’s because one side don’t want to say that they are unhappy with the way the the other side is doing the assignment yet choose not to voice out and the other side don’t want to explain what they are doing. Oh my god!!! Why can’t some people just talk it out like civilised people? Angry people should go cool down themselves before saying anything because what you say now can’t be taken back. And i tell you there is a lot of bad blood afterwards. They said a lot of ugly things about each other that they normally wouldn’t say and obviously our friendship ( which i know would not last long anyway) suffers.
I hate involving myself in such meddlesome things. So annoying and pointless. *seriously feeling extremely annoyed now*
Surprisingly, i didn’t feel that much upset as i thought i would have after moving away from home. Of course i felt a bit sad about leaving my home where my beloved family are. Yet, at here i feel that this is a place where i can start anew. Here is a place where no one knows who i am and no one knows about my past. Maybe here i can finally be myself or maybe at here i can finally make some nice and close friends.
Furthermore, the university environment is pretty nice and transport is pretty good i guess(i haven’t really figured out the transport system here yet). My dorm is only 10minutes away from the university so i can save on the transport fees. And there is a a shopping mall and a theme park/water park 20 minutes away from my dorm. So, life is pretty good i guess. Moreover, my dorm although not the best are pretty above average so i’m satisfied.
So far, there are only a few problems. One of them is that food here is extremely expensive (compared to where i come from) and it’s hard to find cheap ones. The university’s tuition fees are already a huge burden on my parents’ wallet and so i’m trying to save as much money as possible. Today, i’m skipping dinner as i don’t feel all that hungry. Money is a huge problem which probably everyone agrees with me. Those that say it isn’t is either lying or very rich. Which is why one of my life goal is to be rich enough that my parents won’t stress or get headache over money anymore.
The next problem is me being friendless here. I’ve met a few people in the same class but we’re not that close to be called friends yet (acquaintance maybe?) so i have no one to hang out with and my daily life is just going to and fro the uni and my dorm. Hell, i don’t even know how to fill my weekends now. I now only spend my free time watching animes, reading and revising. How boring, i know right? And it doesn’t help that i missed orientation(ice-breaking and stuff) and a week and a day of class(i have my reasons) plus i’m not really sociable. Let’s just wish that this situation turns out for the better as time goes pass.
Now,i’m just taking it one day at a time. Wish me luck! 🙂
Tomorrow, i’ll move out from my home that i lived in for since i was born. It was so that i can pursue my dream. The place where i am going isn’t very far from home, just 5 hours from my hometown.
But now when i think of it, i am really scared. What if i couldn’t fit in? What if i couldn’t make friends? Will i be okay there? Honestly i’m not really good at making friends. Things like that don’t come easily to me. i remember few years back when i transfer to my new high school, it took me a year before i am able to warm up towards my classmates and have a bunch of close friends. Then, i went to college for my a-levels. None of my high school friends went to the same college as me. I vividly remember the times i sat alone eating. It was such a painful and lonely experience that i don’t want to feel anymore. And it took some time before i make friends at college. It’s not that i don’t make the effort to befriend others, it’s just somehow harder for me. Plus, the fact that i joined the course late by about a month and most of them were already friends before college aren’t making things easier for me either. And this time, i’m enrolling late again for various reason.
All those lonely days i am able to handle because when i go home, my family will always be there to support me. They’re the ones that really know the real me, my cynical attitude, my temper (it’s not too bad though), my bad habits and another playful side of me.
Moving away from my comfort zone is extremely stressful. Yet, i wish i can make it work and not let anyone down. Best of luck to me!!!! 🙂