I think it is time to pick myself up and gain the confidence i wished to have. Time to stop hating yourself for the mistakes you had done, stop self-pitying yourself. There are beautiful days ahead. Be strong. It is fine if you make mistakes. Remember why you are doing this in the first place. Be happy and live strong.
If you noticed, the title is from an anime call re: zero (Obviously lol). In the beginning, i thought it is the typical plot of falling into a fantasy world. But as i continue watching the show, it has so much deep meanings to it. How Subaru (main character) fall into despair because he realised he is powerless and helpless and how he finally comes to terms with himself with the help of other characters. The character development is superb and all characters have their own ideals and depths. It’s not much of a love story (yet) but it plays with my emotions. It breaks my heart one moment and then heals and touches me in the next. If even Subaru is trying his best to to live the way he wants to, i see no reason why i should not.
Subaru Natsuki: It was rough. It was so painful. I was so scared. I was so sad. It hurt so much, I thought I’d die. I tried so hard… I tired so hard! I was so desperate, so desperate to make everything right! It’s the truth. I’ve honestly never tried so hard at anything in my life! Because I loved this place… Because it was so important to me! I was so desperate to get back. I was scared… I was so scared! I didn’t want those eyes looking at me like that again… And I hated myself so much for feeling that way!
Rem: When you said that you hate yourself, it made me want to tell you all the wonderful things I know about you.
It’s time for me to start again.. from zero.